What Would I Like To Do To Those People Who Create Spyware?

1) First, I'd like to break into their house and download as much spyware as possible onto their computer to show them what it's like.
2) After they become frustrated to the point of throwing their computer out the window, I'll move in for the kill.
*ponders on how this should be done*
I'll start the process by chaining their legs and their arms together to minimize the risk of escape.
3) Then, I'll shoot off their big toes (credit to Dean Koontz for that idea) with some sort of weapon. (If no gun's available, then I'll settle for a knife.)
4) I'll put as many aspirins as I can fit into their mouth, and I'll tape their lips shut with red duct tape.
5) Next, I'll lay them flat on their back, and I'll set some fresh dog crap on the duct tape. Because their mouth is taped shut, they'll have to inhale through their nose and smell the droppings with every breath.
6) Now for the emotional torture! I'll get statistics of how many computers were destroyed because of spyware, along with statistics for all the repair costs. I'll tell them tragic stories about people in poverty who needed computers for their jobs, but couldn't afford new ones after having lost the old ones to viruses. I'll see how bad that makes them feel, and I'll tell them more if I deem it necessary.
7) After that's done, I'll let them sit for a few hours so that they can wallow in their guilt.
8) I'll come back, induce some physical pain, and then I'll leave again so that they can wallow some more.
(step 8 can be repeated a few times, if desired)
9) After they've suffered enough emotionally and physically, I'll either put them out of their misery and kill them, or I'll leave them to starve to death, depending on how merciful I feel.

And thus concludes the life of a despicable excuse for a human being.

:)

Gray Uplifters

Following a night of distress, I'm feeling more positive than negative this morning. That probably results from the fact that I just finished Intensity, a great book by Dean Koontz, and it left me with a feeling of hope like most of his books tend to do.
Anywho, I definitely need to start writing in here more. Last night, I was chatting with Caroline, and I couldn't contain my distress. I don't want people to see how I feel anymore because they never make me feel better... Purging my emotions in here is a much better alternative, and I hope I can get myself in the habit.

Pass the Mic

Main thoughts of today:
1) People who stand around and arrogantly block the way in narrow hallways are extremely irritating and deserve to be shoved into mountains of dog droppings. What's even worse is when you say excuse me (and are ignored), walk by, brush them slightly, and get complained at! It's the times like that when the urge to fight back is almost irresistable. Why must such people walk the planet?
2) Our basketball team lost yesterday AND today... Why?!?
3) Another why... why must I see such a horrible reflection in the mirror?!?!?
4) And last... I don't want to go to school tomorrow. I have to take the sci. vis. (piece of cake) and English (NOT a piece of cake) exams. Of all the kinds of exams on the planet, English is not the one for me.
Well, that sums it up. I need to get some serious sleepage for the exams tomorrow, so goodnight to whoever happens to read this!

Rant About a Serious B!tch

Okay... so I'm feeling sad because I'm always sore, which causes me to suck at track. I was telling my dad about how I lost my social studies book, and I said, "There goes $50 down the drain." My mom KNOWS that I'm feeling bad, yet she still erupts with, "WILL YOU JUST RELAX?!?!?!?"
I mean, what better way to cheer someone up than to yell at them?!
This, along with a few other things, is why I absolutely HATE HATE HATE her right now.

Success

Track: This is a big announcement... *drumroll* At the meet, I got 3rd place in a race! It might not seem like much, but it's to me like a lifetime supply of bananas is to a gorilla... And 3rd place means that I scored points for my school! HECK YES!

Basketball: I didn't suck nearly as horribly as I did at the last practice. In fact, I think I played rather well today! We scrimmaged with the other team, and I actually scored one. I also stole the ball from this really aggressive girl on the other team a bunch of times, which I think made me stood out quite a bit as a good man to man player. Time for another whopping HECK YES!

So yeah, with nothing disastrous happening, today definitely deserves to be considered good.

Stubborn Pain

I switched from distance to sprinting, and I like it so much better. It's more fun, and the people are really nice, so I'm definitely sticking with this. No more being held back by Shelley.

Beyond that, I feel kind of distressed. I totally sucked at basketball, and that started this dreadful mood. And I'm not just sad about my suckiness tonight... I'm sad about the uselessness of my life, my horrible looks, my loneliness, and all my other imperfections.
I found out that someone I know has a baby... And it's weird how even though you know others have it a lot worse than you, it's next to impossible to forget about your own problems.
I wish it was the weekend.

Still There

Imperfection
Tainted mood
Shattered halos
Goodness skewed
Probity ripped
Realism rare
And yet a light
Can still be there

I don't really like it, but I'm sick of pondering what I can do to improve it. Maybe I'll perfect it in the future, but the chance of that is slim... Borderline anorexic slim.
AH! I feel like writing another poem or a story or something, but NO, it has to be 10 o'clock at night. I wish I had more time.
Oh well... my desire to not fall asleep in class tomorrow overpowers my desire to write. I hope this urge continues on to somewhere in the future where I actually have lots of spare minutes in my hands. 'Til then, goodbye.

Cereal, Bananas, and Peanut Butter

I feel like writing about what I ate today, so here's my list. First I'll say the food I ate, and then I'll say the number of calories it contains in brackets.

-2 cups of Rice Crispies cereal [200]
-1/2 - 1 cup of skim milk [80]
-1 banana [100]
-about 4 tbsp. peanut butter (sigh) [380]
-2 slices of bread [140]
-5 slices of meat [70]
-1 slice of cheese [80]
-1/2 cup of Fruity Pebbles cereal [80]
-1 sliced apple [?]
-1 banana [100]
-about 4 tbsp. of peanut butter (huge sigh) [380]
-2 cups of Rice Crispies cereal [200]
-1/2 - 1 cup of skim milk [80]
-several snack sized candy bars (NOOO!!!) [?]
-small amount of marinated chicken [?]

I'm kinda reluctant to see what all this stuff totals up to... oh well. *calculates*
Ahh, not as bad as I thought. I got 1,890 from all the calorie numbers I knew, so the total amount I consumed probably isn't more than 2,500.
I'd usually consider that absolutely horrible, but I burned 800 calories on my treadmill by walking 5 3/4 miles. And I can probably add 100 from the mile I walked in gym class.
So, my estimate for today is 1,600, give or take a hundred calories. I guess that's not too much, especially since I'm still growing and stuff.
My major weaknesses are cereal and peanut butter. Cereal's not that bad, but the number of calories in peanut butter is ridiculous! I told my mom to stop buying the kind I like so that I won't be tempted by it anymore... maybe that'll actually work.
Another weakness is those snack sized candy bars. However, they're not much of a problem since I hardly ever have them around anyway.

That's all I have to say about my diet today. Maybe if I count my calories in here everyday, I'll be more wary of what I eat. This plan, along with the RTPOE plan, should have nothing other than good results! :)

Transformation?

This title is referring to 2 things:
1) My RTPOE (Remember the Pain of Eating) plan. This is a transformation of my eating habits, which I desperately hope I can stick with.
2) Track. I told the coach that I might try sprints tomorrow... so this could possibly be a transformation from distance running to sprinting.

Let's see... today was average. Many things got on my nerves, including the people I sit with at lunch, Shelley, and the large population of inconsiderate jerks in my school. Nothing too specific... the bad things just seemed to stick out more than usual.

After I got home from school and track practice, I read almost non-stop for 3 hours and finished up a creepin' book called "Black Creek Crossing" by John Saul. I didn't like the way it was written, but the interesting events had me hooked.

Well, I think it's time for me to end this entry. I should be sleeping now rather than in class tomorrow, so goodbye and goodnight!

RTPOE

Remember
The
Pain
Of
Eating

I looked into my bathroom mirror last night and absolutely despised what I saw... so I decided that it's finally time to change my mentality. For the past few months, food's been my greatest joy and comfort; now I'm going to try and shift it elsewhere. In order to keep myself motivated, I'm going to write "RTPOE" on my arm everyday... When I look at it, I'll think of the agony I feel when I look into a mirror, and it'll inspire me to not overeat. I hope I can stick with this!