Hope Remix

"I was hoping to write a deep, thought-provoking entry, but chances aren't as good now... Just when I need to examine my emotions, they become scrambled as if they're strawberries and bananas being mixed inside a blender. Ah well, I'll do my best.
For the most part, I think I feel distressed. Or a better word might be disturbed. My singleness, inexperience, and lack of hope for the short-term are all to blame for this emotion.
But before I get too wrapped up in my sadness, I remember all the hope I have for the long-term. Even the ugliest and the fattest get married and live exceptional lives, so I have more good chances than bad.
I need to make the hope overpower the distress, which it usually does anyway... but the little shadow of distress is always there. Don't get me wrong... I'm a very happy person. However, I'm also discontent. I feel like I haven't really lived yet. My curiosity keeps me wondering, "What's it like to live this way?" which makes it difficult to be satisfied. I hope that if I'm lucky enough to be granted another 20 years of life, I'll be able to find the answers and experience all the things I hope to.
Maybe it's this satisfying of curiosity that gives meaning to life.
And with that, I depart."

I blogged that on my Myspace, so I figured I'd post it in here too. It pretty much describes how I feel right now.